Death is haunting me. It began in 2020. September 2020 when I came home from the Montreal Experiments Walk With Us Rally. I had enough clout to organize it with McGill university so that we could be in front of the Allan Memorial Institute where my parents met in 1959 as victims of, The Programme.
Stepping out of my car onto the property felt completely different than it ever had been. It was as though a sombre cast eerie filter had descended on the place. I found the house I lived in seemed way bigger than I remembered it and it too felt unfamiliar inside. One of the 2 lynx point Siamese rescues from the Baja I co-joined with for 8 years was gone.
The harassment and malicious targeting from other patient children with whom I had helped and shared and promoted out of the goodness of my heart hurt me. Now this ill wind as though I had awakened the devil had reached my home. I had signs in my lucids during raw traveling that the devil was on my heels. Here are 2 samples from 2008 and 2009 from raw traveling:
All my encounters with the holy spirit lead me to a pool of tears. Tears of regret for my joyous life unlived and everyone else's combined.
I have met dark entities before. Twice in one week, I have tunnelled furiously into consciousness out of sleep. The first one merely approached me as I was sleeping as though to lay a hand on me. I was even thinking positively about it until I felt its evil presence and jumped awake.
The second one in a high pitched voice, that was neither man nor woman, spoke to me as I left the abandoned warehouse that I was walking through. "I am going to kill you." it said.
My inner warrior rose up and then I was awake again. My first instinct was to turn and fight this thing. So, when I don't flinch easy and find stories of other people's hell lame, you may now know why. I don't have a lot of sympathy for modern weaknesses.
When the devil wants to kill you you have real problems, as improbable as the devil would have you believe it is.
2009 - I am doing so much personal work and discovery that I don't want anyone else to get in my way. I even discarded an entity on the beach the first night of the fast. This is different from the evil entities who want to kill me in dreams I had in the 00’s.
I heard it in my head while I was sleeping and began to discern that it was not me. It was just nattering on as though it was all excited that it was on this trip. As soon as I realized this entity was in my head, I got really angry and started spinning the van around and yelling at him to fuck off. I heard a distinct click, like a video game door closing. Then it said, “no need to get angry, no need to be rude.” And it left. I woke up to the sound of footsteps walking away into the night of a deserted beach in Mexico.
I hate to think how long this thing has been attached to me. I am aware of these things through the work of the late master hypnotist Dick Sutphen. There is an interview Dick conducted on his radio show with Joe Kingman. When I listened to the bit about Joe loosing his desire to drink once the entity was gone, I kinda perked up.
I have been sober as a judge since shortly after Ruth died in April 2023. More soul sucking death eater cult insanity aimed directly at me and my bloodline removed what few delusions I clung to since being an open target on line and in my community for presenting solid evidence and making real progress through the courts and body politic towards resolution for my family’s mistreatment.
My sister and my 2 year old dog who healed my heart after Boomer was presumed poisoned were taken from me via collective malice and madness within 2 weeks of each other in March and April of 2023. The starkness of evil was at my door again, targeting the things I loved. Wonder why I didn’t start a family?
Delusions run out. Then you die. People die. Not one of them from Convid but all taken from life because their delusion, their hope ran out and the devil snatched them in a weak moment. You can sense it coming. People are helping you die. I can sense that very easily. They accuse you of what they are doing; it is the essence of gang stalking (don’t say that word because then you cwwwaaaaazzzzzzyyyyyyy). People who invent lies about you to persist their delusion are desperate to kill you as if their survival depends on it. Why?
The man who answered that question has died. Long time OG counter intelligence great David Hawkins died suddenly in Sept. of 2023. His emails stopped coming and I sensed it. I confirmed it much later with Jason Goodman. Thanks for the eulogy and message from his brother.
David Hawkins invented AI. I knew about UBC having a license to use LSD. David’s computer sleuthing skills have indictable evidence that “labs of rage” human experimentation were conducted at UBC since 1969 using LSD to turn family members into mortal enemies. No shit Sherlock. I lived it.
Sherlock was one of his handles. His lasts words that touched on everything the cointel pros are using as weapons of war through bot farming comments using humans as mind control slaves / units of value of energy to be stolen from, is bullet formed here:
An 'avatar detective', 'AI Bond' has deduced that GPT programmers 'fix' the outcomes of Trudeau FMEP crime-site analysis by weaponizing patents such as..
1. “Digital personal assistant interaction with impersonations and rich multimedia in responses CN105917404B Microsoft (Gates)”
2. “System and method for acquiring training data CN112771548A Tesla
3. "Autonomous and user-controlled vehicle summon to a target [surveillance of CureVac victims?] CN113728210A—Tesla, co-inventor Elon Musk".
4. "Lysergic acid amides—US2997470A" Eli Lilly 1961 Useful to elicit rage patterns and hallucinations" [Note Lilly gave CureVac $50 million plus equity €45 million "Announce Global Collaboration to Develop mRNA Cancer Vaccines".
5. "System and method for electronically exchanging value among distributed users CA2910997A1 PayPal"
6. “System and method for creating content for an event using a social network US9498694B2—2016 application granted”
7. "Friend or foe detection system and method and expert system military action advisory system and method—US6166679A" App 1999 Howard Lemelson.
8. "Ground penetrating synthetic aperture radar—CN1120990C”
9. "Expert system method of performing crime site analysis CA2187704C"
10. “Real-time interactive wagering on event outcomes CA2986984A Howard Lutnick.
The mind police have to use the death eater ray to stop people like David and myself. Largely David flew under the radar because of his affable eccentric exterior. I knew David since 2010ish. The fact that he and Field McConnell established one of the first formatted cointel pro (it is a neutral term) internet shows, Abel Danger, almost a decade ahead of everyone else should not be forgotten, despite the turning of Field’s character into a frothing religious zealot and David’s over everyone’s head content.
2015 to 2019 were heady days on the internet at the advent of the flood of information meets the unresolved trauma of the collective against the individual battle for survival. There was so much hope, excitement and open exchange. Who knew that everything would be stamped out because people needed to feel safe. No hope. Safe. I never understood what the threat with Q was. It gave people hope. It lifted them up. What is wrong with that?
Delusion. There will be no healing centres, there will be no golden tickets, there will be no change of policy, there will be no let up for victims of mkultra trauma based mind control (another don’t say trigger term?) There are too many replacements, too many plants, too many empty vessels needing your space to feed the churn.
Knowing that these last 10 years were both the most valiant of efforts and the greatest defeats of our mortal essences is not exactly uplifting. I regret having not reconnected with one of my early contacts in the love and light save the world psi op, Luz Aguirrebena. I learned of her passing in late 2023 recently as well. She was so friendly and loving and charming. She had a real motherly wise way about her. Yet, when I saw Mk ultra girl picture, I just knew I couldn’t play along with the Swiss Indo 5 million dollar certificate world reevaluation plan anymore. I basically traded that delusion for the healed survivor movement delusion using my hard evidence as the mkultra victim I spent my lifetime suppressing as my currency.
One sixth of my lifetime has been spent on this. Luz has died, David has died, Dick Sutphen had died, my sister died, my best friend Unis died. What for the struggles if my last remaining family is gone before the payout, before justice?
It is Ruth’s class action that is going forward in the courts, not our parent’s class action. Montreal Experiments case is still not certified after 5 years. Ruth’s case is certified after 2 years. Depending on the will of the defendants (crown) to settle, that 5 foot cheque might take anywhere from 1 to 5 years.
And all the children MK survivors of Standford, UCLA etc. in the States and where ever it was in Canada have not formed into a coherant force. I know and support several here in Canada and they are all having a bad time. It was largely the point of the members of the Montreal Experiments case to LARP (extinguish) that hope.
Montreal Experiments case is a right off. Not safe. Stay away. Let the victims die and let history imagine that they are not still living with the generational after effects. The point is, it is all my fault. All mirroring aside, lets not speak ill of the dead, or at least keep it to a minimum and lets not forget that it is love that bonds us, not the programming content.
I miss my sister. I don’t regret the time we had. Neither did she. It was the way it was. It was all we could afford. Maybe time ran out, but the rest of us can still do something about this. Can you handle the truth?
This interview with Scott Hensler is one of my favorites. I describe a near death experience I had and the foreshadowing of what I am experiencing now. Don’t worry, I will be going back to my soul family, but this is the reality of what I have to get past to get there.
I am refreshing content and adding new stuff. Thanks to all my past, present and future supporters. I could not have done this without you. It is not your fault either. I have 3 new collections of interviews and shows up on Patreon for members. Please join to access. I will be adding more as there are dozens more I have to process.
My grandest delusion, my photography career, will also be refreshed in the coming months. That delusion actually supported me for 20 years. 1/4 million dollars sold, 1000’s of happy clients and 1000’s of valuable wall art past and to come. My first NEW show in 5 years will be launched in the coming weeks.
Yes, I feel it, I hear it. Everyone with whom I connect with is feeling it. It is a tough time for us empathic ultras. Know it isn’t just you. Spring is around the corner.
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