Uncommon Ground 1 of 2
Surviving Bad Faith Survivors 1st of 2 instalments
Before discovery, (the event of recognizing myself in the mk ultra girl photo) I sought answers to unresolved trauma around my mother's and father's mental health hospitalizations in Canada beginning from their childhoods in the 30’s in southern Ontario. My first blog post about the subject was Jan. 2014:
MK Ultra; Dr. Ewan Cameron; The Allen Memorial and My Mother
In 2015 I discovered myself in this famous photo. I was 54 years old. It is known as the Strain All Urine photo. In the metadata of the original download the description read: MK Ultra Girl. I identify AS the girl in the image (not WITH). I went public with my revelation and my hidden family history in Jan. 2016.
At the outset of my public experience, I made contact with a regrettable woman who writes self published B novels using her fey musings as a possible mk ultra victim to weave in stories she has been told by other survivors without their consent. She has stalked, slandered, libelled, targeted, conspired and harassed me ever since.
Years on, I witness other survivors and whistle blowers of MK Ultra dark operations (#darkops) dealing with similar abusive, mentally ill behaviour by others and this woman. Almost anyone of merit has a similar tale.
Consequently, the survivor bandwagon has dwindled knowing what is in store for them. Whatever label you apply to these self appointed survivor police (malignant narcissist, sociopath & lunatic spring to mind) they are not doing anyone, least of all themselves, any favours. Last week, I got another inquiry asking me for advise about HOW to go public with their survivor story. This was my reply.
Examine what we expect from the collective. Do we participate in it because we expect to be defeated by it? The Boy Who Cried Wolf much?
Here is where you have to draw the line. I worked my way through the business world to become a self employed aerial art photographer. My mother was a patient of Dr. Ewen Cameron. My father had been in psyche wards. My sister went crazy and my brother died young. That is what I knew.
I was a child when I left home. I wasn’t a part of the mental health system, nor was I ever on any psyche drugs. I didn’t want to wind up like my mother, father, sister or brother. I just went out into the world on my own to live my life regardless of the giant stigma I came from.
Before MK Ultra Girl discovery, I was connected to many spiritual and activist groups. I was involved in almost all social justice causes; health activism was huge for me & a world wide spiritual renaissance was my hope. I was negotiating with 1000’s of clients in business, industry, government and community, which is something I love to do. I proved myself right. However, the MK Ultra stigma (shit stain) proved pervasive. I had to know what this unresolved trauma was about.
In my pre discovery MK fog, I hoped my “cause” to correct the shit stain I bore in the collective would find resolution as an outcropping of shamanistic save the world hopium heros by the likes of Keenan, Fulford, Cobra & Wilcock or any triumphant do the right thing wrong way reversal leader of any movement.
I was also a boots to ground truther, keeping track of intelligence around 911 and child trafficking. I listened to Alex Jones every day for almost 5 years in the early '00s. I was real life friends with David Hawkins and I had dinner with Field McConnell when he came to White Rock for David’s wife’s funeral. I didn’t just fall out of the sky into the online crackpot stew.
Realizing that I was invested in both sides of the save the world coin, I wrote this in 2009, Inevitable Doom and Creating Your Own Reality.
Since the first draft of this article in 2019, the collective has moved along with general awareness and less revulsion at the mention of sanctioned MK Ultra Dark Lab Experiments. Every latest season of the cool shows seems to have woven in all of our survivor stories. Almost all the salient “conspiracy theory” points are the plot lines. Clearly, someone was taking notes. Drat, foiled again.
Now, a regular good faith person would just let my identification as MK Ultra Girl roll by their eye and see what happens. A bad faith survivor, however, will use the collective stigma to attack another survivor. Any mature person can see that the only reason a self pronounced victim would do this to another self pronounced victim is to create havoc like an attention seeking baby not getting it’s way.
In 2016, I altered this image and made it go viral adding evolving image overlays and text. Now it looks like this, (right: grade 2 class photo, left: age regressed from 2016 image). I got the word out. It worked. However, it caused the ire of many of these failed professional victims, as though I was supposed to get their approval.
If this were 2016, you could expect a spew of shaming guilt trips heaped upon you like:
You are discrediting real survivors.
You are committing a crime.
You are trying to get rich.
You are obsessed with them.
You got all your material from the internet.
You are a liar, fraud, thief and a rogue of the highest order.
There is no point countering their claims. It is all just a waste of time. Lies. Wrong. That is all they are doing, wasting your time. I have an evidence locker full of foul deeds my personal stalker has done to me. I wasted a few years trying to straighten her out via such presumably resoluting factors like incepting a class action lawsuit but no, she poisoning that well too.
I endeavoured to sue her and her accomplices but elected to write up my own legal notices instead. They worked. They saved me hassle and money. However, our collective Montreal Experiments Class Action case is still stalemated by this and other problems.
For some invested, gate keeping & controlling the narrative appears to be more important than truth & justice. Several original survivors of the Montreal Experiments have died in the 5 years since the collective progeny of same vowed swift justice and appropriate compensation.
The most ardent and pervasive stalking and harassment campaigns I received from going viral via MK Ultra Girl came from:
Children & relatives of patients/trauma survivors of the Allan Memorial Hospital in Montreal.
Canadian trauma survivors who wanted to be in the class but didn’t qualify.
Canadian trauma survivors who identify as Christians.
Alternative media hosts connected to the people above.
People who claimed to be close to or related to Dr. Joseph Mengele’s family.
People who claimed to be targeted individuals.
This is really just a small group of people. Politicians, lawyers, students and real journalists from all over the globe do not participate, yet the shit stain remains.
Since MK Ultra Girl Discovery 2015, I took a stand from the right side of heaven to stop the ongoing madness from my bloodline against me.
That is all that matters. No other cause trumps my cause, no other offence tops my offence. I spent my life helping other people with their worthy causes wondering if and when anyone, including myself could ever help with my cause.
In 2017, I created the Michael Atkin Foundation to collectively deal with unresolved survivor trauma.
stay tuned…
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