Your Mother is Mk Ultra pt. 2
Emma Jane Crunican Atkin
My mother, Emma Jane Crunican Atkin was a beauty. She went to art school in Montreal in the 50's but dropped out. She broke out in boils because of an allergic reaction to the paint. Arthur Lismer, one of the Group of 7, was her teacher.
She had a fiancée that she broke up with who was the son of a prominent Doctor in Windsor or London ON. She grew up on an apple orchard near London Ontario. She was artistic and talented. She loved fashion and made her own clothes.
While I grew up, not much was spoken of my mother's state. She was always crying, always low energy, often in bed or on the couch listening to opera. She was on meds while she was pregnant with all her kids. I knew she went to the Allen Memorial in Montreal, run by the famously sadistic psychiatrist, (Dr.) Ewen Cameron. It is time to posthumously pull these titles off these monsters.
I knew my mother had shock treatments. She said she was not part of the LSD experiments (not true). She suffered in silence with a brutal and insensitive husband, my father and a disengaged, dispassionate natal family.
One day in the late 90's I watched the CBC documentary, The Sleep Room. I immediately wrote the government to tell them my mother was also part of these experiments and was entitled to the measly 100,000 compensation the first court case settled on for some of the victims.
I got a letter back that said it was only for certain victims of a certain experiment. My mother was already in a nursing home, almost at the end of her wasted, long suffering life. She was not in any condition to help me with her case.
It always bothered me my mother never received proper treatment from her family or my father or the system. Nobody seemed to give a damn about her condition and they blamed her for it. Not one of her brothers or sister ever stood up for her. She never received any help from her doctors or therapists either.
Needless to say, my mother's life was very sad and I was helpless to help her. It is still very sad and troubling, compounded by the early death of my brother, Michael Atkin at 19 yrs old and the institutionalization of my sister beginning at 16 years old.
My mother died on Feb. 2nd 1999. She was only 67 years old. She had very little. She lived on a pittance after she separated from my father in subsidized housing that I had to fight to keep her in, after the building tried to evict her.
I was successful in keeping her in this housing as I entreated advocates to help her. I was in BC and she was in Ontario. Curiously, her own family did nothing to help her when this happened and they were close by.
I tried to rescue my mother since infancy. It wasn’t until I was in my ‘50s that I realized many adults could have and should have rescued her. What was done to my mother was also done to me.
I don’t help people because I am okay and they are not. I help them because I am a good person despite NOT being okay. The stigma on my mother was passed down to her children. Children of TBMC survivors who are also amnesiac victims of childhood trauma based mind control are unrecognized to this day.
Saying goodbye to my mother in April 1993 was the saddest thing. I had to lie to her because I was so broken up about her despair over my departure. Although we had had rough patches, I was her lifeline and her only connection in Toronto. I told her I was only leaving for 6 months, whilst knowing I was leaving for good. I saw her twice after that before she died.
I googled information about her case in July 2013. I learned there was a new court case that won compensation for the Montreal Experiments. I emailed the lawyer. I wanted to know about my mother. Where could I find her records?
Within one week State of Mind: the Psychology of Control came out. Produced by Infowars and directed by James Lane. Within the movie at approximately the 1:03:24 mark, depending on which version you view, a terrified woman is getting shock treatment presumably for the first time, by Dr. Ewen Cameron. It is my mother.
Lana Mills-Sowchuk
My Dad was used as a guinea pig at the hands of the evil Dr. Cameron! He was tortured! So much hush hush, back in the day. No one spoke of what happened very much. Now in my 60s, and after obtaining, some, not all my Dad's medical files, I am learning the truth. It is very hard to read the horrible things that were done to my Dad. I feel guilty for treating him the way I did, but I was not aware at the time.
Ellen Atkin
Thanks for your testimony Lana. We will continue to uncover the truth and stop this madness for all generations.
KaliMyst
Hi, Thank you so much for posting this. I am the estranged daughter of Jean-Charles Pagé, who was also at the Allan Memorial. I knew he had been there but until recently had no idea of the amount of trauma he had been through. After he attempted killing me in 1965, I never saw him again. I spent most of my life thinking my dad hated me and was a monster. Who tries to kill their 2 1/2 year old daughter???
Now after reading everything I've read on MK Ultra, I realize that it wasn't my dad's fault. I'm now doing all sorts of research to understand what kind of man my dad was.
Hi Kalymist:
Since I began this public research and inquiry into my own family, I have heard from many other people from US and Canada, who are waking up to the truth of what happened to them and their families.
One of the most important outcomes to my research is that others can see through the lies and pain and shame and heartbreak and unresolved trauma that has been passed off as fake psychological conditions to throw attention away from the guilty perpetrators within their own stories.
Thank you for sharing. Good luck with the healing, discovery and restitution.
Clearly, there is so much more to the truth and to the "programme" than we are led to believe. We were and still are "experiments". I think, after all these scarred lifetimes, that there are no more shadow plays left among the guilty. (I was wrong - survivors themselves revel in shadow play and victim shaming.)
The wagons are circling. The paltry sum of 100,000 dollars Allen Stein dredges up for random isolated cases he chooses to take is a joke.
In addition, it is time to stop using Alan Cameron as the fall guy. There are many many many other people and many many many other programs and institutions involved with this.
Thanks again,
Ellen Atkin, Mk Ultra Grrl
Anonymous
My children were also stolen, put through foster care hell, then placed in a horrible home where they grew up in Amarillo, Tx. I have learned there was/is an Mk Ultra underground facility in the outskirts of Amarillo called the Station. I have no doubt my boys were programmed there.
No one said a thing .. for ever.
Now most of the Aunts, Uncles; her siblings are dead and no silence has been broken.
I knew there was nothing wrong with Mom.
Simply no one wanted to do the real work of helping her .. after she went into shock . of having her life and Children stolen and basically sold off . by MCFD.
ellen atkin
I just learned that the use of sound waves to create imagery was invented in Montreal around the same time. It is the basis of cable TV. The first creation was wireless then they figured out how to modulate it through wires and voila, cable TV. Betcha didn't know that the images are created through sound waves.
ellen atkin
Katherine Jaconello
Such stories as this really need a moment of silence, not words Dufferin County Mental Health, the family doctor, Headwaters Hospital and Homewood tried to "help" my mother (when she was sick with pneumonia) to become a lifelong addict and mental patient in August, 2000.
The College of Physicians, the Health Review Board of Ontario, and the police are all complicit in it. I am still waiting for the results of my second Health Review Board.
I was informed by the Ombudsman that if I am not satisfied with this board's inquiry, I can appeal to the Ombudsman since the Health Review Board is a government board. Since August 2000, I have been sued by psychiatrists for $5 million for opposing the psychotropic drugging of children on the very day they were in the Ontario Legislature in front of the Select Committee on Mental Health.
After 6 months of legal bullying and terror, they dropped it. Et viola, you have the present Liberal Mental Health blueprint "Navigating the Journey to Wellness".
People, do read it. It is crystal-ball gazing into our future as psych patients. Let's all help each other to cauterize this horrible mental health movement which is really behaviour modification big time and our future as lifelong addicts. The people reading this blog may be the most important link alive today to a salvaged culture.
Grace Rose
My mother was also beautiful. My mother was also targeted, along with 2 of her sisters for MK ultra abuse because of satanic bloodline. Mom conceived me in what I believe to have been a satanic ritual rape on All Hallow's Eve. 9 months later I was born in what i also believe was an MK ultra operated unwed mother's home just outside of Lincoln Nebraska where the doctor let me fall to the floor immediately after my arrival, instead of catching me like he should. I recall the awful jaundice yellow of the delivery room walls and his equally awful, demonic eyes. So trauma conceived, trauma born...
Peace be with you!
Thank you, Katherine and Grace for posting. Oddly enough today is my mother's birthday. June 17th. Her twin sister is still alive. She is 82 today. We must gather together and expose, heal, and receive compensation. All over the US and Canada, children of military, random street people, innocent people walking into the wrong hospital, and many others are a part of this, now their children and their children.
It is called inter-generational trauma and it is for real. No more burying this shame and guilt that was never ours to begin with. Of all the issues of the day this one has the potential to bring down the core of evil that gridlocks all of our lives.
Thank you so much for speaking out. We are coming together and we are vast. (I was totally wrong, the momentum is a disaster of shills, bots and severely traumatized unresolved people.)
Your stories are touching me and the others I have connected with since writing this article. Is it worth it to remain in the shadows? Not for me. Only the guilty benefit. This grand experiment has not stopped either. They have just grown more sophisticated. Once again ladies, thank you. We will prevail. God is with us.
Spin
I’m very sorry that you had to find out this way. My mother was tortured as well, but she wont tell me how. She was raised in a convent, and beat for being left handed, ridiculed everyday, and more, which she wont discuss.
I found out others had these type of psychological treatments, like shock therapy done by the catholic church at the time. Natives had these experiments done, and any french girl who was living in a catholic convent.
Most natives were in camps controlled by the Anglican or catholic church, ultimately run by the Catholics for experimentation on all these people including your mother. Nazi Germany before WW2 had an advisor come to Canada to find out how all these experiments were done, and took the Canadian camp ideas to Germany.
Canada’s food guide was made from the possibility of with holding vitamins from native children and adults in order to find out the nutrient capacity allowed before you could die or get sick. The Jesuits are the controllers of all the past and present experiments it still exists and even our education system is controlled by the same organisation.
ellen atkin
Thank you for your comment Spin. It certainly does fit. My mother did enter a convent at some point, I believe it was before the hospitalization, but I don't know for sure.
She didn't stay long and didn't say much about it, except that she had a deep hostility towards the nuns who where there. Once again, no details about what happened to her. And my uncle, her brother was a Catholic priest.
I suspect it was him to rescued her from the Allen Memorial (wrong, he was a perp) But he may have also been instrumental in getting her in too. I don't know. Apparently my mother and father met at a party held by my uncle the priest, Paul Crunican.
Author Ellen Atkin
Kerry
I'm beginning to think the nephilim/alien stuff is just BS. I'm leaning more toward the simplest answer. They like blood transfusions. Preferably the younger the better. Their preference for the AB negative is, yes, because they are mostly AB negative. But they use Os because they are more plentiful. On the Red Cross website, they state O neg and pos are always in short supply. Why? If O is so common among the populace, why is there a continual shortage? It doesn't make sense. Not unless they are taking the O blood and using it for other things. Os are prevalent in Native American, Celtic, Germanic and Scandinavian populations. The same people that are preyed upon the most for MK Ultra. There is information missing about this subject. And they are covering it up with a lot of hoo doo stories. Maybe AB negs are throwbacks or something that was the wrong direction, they are being bred out of the population. Maybe the elite are trying desperately to breed with "regular" humans. Hence all their DNA experimentation Nazi insanity.
Ellen Atkin
I hear ya Kerry. This topic is very interesting to me. I believe negative and positive blood types are on a scale. I posit, at some point enuf of a determinate factor present in all blood becomes a positive type.
Blood type information is completely occluded from casual inquiry. Why? did Mengele at the helm of the NA NaziMedicine industry ensure this to cover important evidence and exposure of their crimes? Here is what my casual inquiry is supposing right now. Negative bloods are descendants of Nephelim, thus directly related to the fallen/ aliens/ gods/ elohim/ royals of old.
Soooooo, the vast majority of negative blood targets are FIRST on the cult hit list because a whole lot of us repented or at the very least did not sign up for the Nazi/Bush/NWO death cult inspired Kultra timeline steering BS. WE are their first targets. Call them cast off royals, repentant fallen hybrids. Some ponder that Kultra will try to vilify any neg blood traits as other worldly, therefore of the devil.
Kerry
"Knowing your bloodtype: As inscrutable as this topic is, there does seem to be a co relation btwn negative bloodtypes and targeting by the cult." I'm questioning this story as another misdirect thrown to the MKs. I myself am O+ and that didn't stop me from being a subject. What I see in these various "stories" is a backslapping way to make the MKs feel special, selected, higher beings. This is pumping up the feel good for all the cult compliant alters inside. As far as I'm concerned, until I find out otherwise, I just somehow tripped into their schemes for whatever reason. I don't want to be "special", I want to know what the hell happened to me.
Lex is Legion
You almost make it all sound so easily managed. But I understand it isn't. There is so much to take in , to uncover - I am overwhelmed and frustrated. I don't think it too wise for me to disclose specific information in such a public forum. I know I can not hide but I don't make it easy by standing on the "X". I would like to share what I know...
Ellen
Well then you can disclose to me. A lot of people do that. I still don't know what to do with it all but it does help me and it helps them. So call or email. 604 259 9508 or ellenatkin@gmail.com I totally understand. Thanks again for commenting.
Lex is Legion
They have had my daughter for 7 years now. She was 10 when I last saw her. I know they can not shatter her psyche and create another DID drone but I shudder to think of what they have done to her. I have kept close and careful watch as best as I could but her blip fell off my radar about a year ago.
I know they keep her extremely isolated. I often wonder why I am allowed to live. I must either still be of use or at the very least amusing. I am in an area where many of us have been gathered. Some of us know this, others are oblivious. Is it arrogance or oversight? Or are they watching to see what happens should we all figure it out. Would we team up or will we try to take each other out? I try to keep silent and stay hidden. But my shine gives me away. I eagerly await your response. Forgive the anonymous response, this is not my device as I have no connectivity of my own. Otherwise I have no issue revealing my identity.
Ellen
I can't imagine what it is like to have a child taken from you into their system. I aborted mine. Which is another set of issues. Figuring this out is helpful. Connecting with others (who don't try to discredit or destroy you) is helpful. Knowing yourself is helpful. How we know ourselves is more than bouncing off walls of Kultra distopia.
Part of secret knowledge to control people is to not let them know how to know themselves or control the whole thing through disinfo programmes (new age, education, fake everything, etc.)
Knowing your family history and genealogy is helpful. In many cases, it is a connection to a secret society through one or more of these organizations: Freemasonry, the military, the church, the education system, the medical system, the legal system, the political system.
I would leave business out of it because, it is the one control area where one has the most leverage to perform workarounds to forming allegiances in order to thrive (even then it isn't easy, but it is possible).
Knowing your bloodtype: As inscrutable as this topic is, there does seem to be a co relation btwn negative bloodtypes and targeting by the cult. From my limited research it appears to be the bloodline of Jesus or the nephelim (children of the gods/fallen/annunaki/aliens mixed with their human creation (Adam) which is a mix of their essence (the lightening bolt/ thor's hammer/ electricity/ phosphorus) mixed with neanderthal/ape? Or both. Heady stuff.
There are lots of groups formed at all different levels. Targeted/ gangstalked individuals: (mobbing, radiation burns, DEW hits, street theatre, black helicopters, etc.) Ultras: (children used in any of the programmes for stealing, copying and riding frequencies to control time) Satanic Ritual Abuse: Cult scum, stupid people thinking they are getting a one up on the rest of society by destroying their souls and their kids' souls.
They all basically mesh, but the TI is the most surface, prevalent symptom of the Programme. I have reversed a lot of the mk in myself, which is reversing the blocks/ implants/ demon possessions; breaking down the amnesiac walls; working directly with the other creative force for good (God), etc., by stopping all my ideas except my basic human right to exist.
Then I took it back to the system. I confronted the medical professions and the legal professions (still needs lots of work), certain levels of government (still developing) and most fully, the media (the internet and its offshoots). Then I just got about my business. And watch it all unravel behind me. More or less. I have a huge list of things I want to do to help, etc, but I am miles ahead of the usual TI because we have a lawsuit already in progress here in Canada. It is a class action against the CIA, McGill University, The CA guv, and the Royal Victoria Hospital, “the Montreal Experiments" Class action.
At this point, before the case is resolved, I can only suggest to follow the formula we did. Find a lead (use John Marks, The Black Vault, The Church Committee, Bill Clinton's apology). Find others in your control group (one class action for all of the above groups is too much to handle) and organize. Make a shit storm of protest through the media. Rinse repeat, gather evidence, testimony, etc..
Petition to release deep state records, DUMBs records, hospital, military records, etc. Get what is available now through applications (military records, medical, whatever they release, get them or try to get them). Keep pushing in. Eventually they will have no room.
It is already happening but there is still lots of time for them to do more damage and they will until their final hour, and try to create more temporal distortions to escape justice (those are created using the present & future slave colonies of harvested soul energy (where you can imagine a Matrix like clone army of helpless victims trapped in cryotank/ tubes/ bubbles, both captured and bred for) in places like the DUMBS, Antartica with connecting underground networks using old inner earth routes and new military tunnels to pop up locals like isolated islands in any ocean (Indonesia is big). Find a good legal team.
Hello Ellen,
The more I find out, as I read your articles, about the suffering of your family, the more I realize the similarity with my own family's suffering.
From what I understand you may be missing some "parts" of the quasi "pazzle" which parts may be known to me.
From what is seems there may be even more "darkness" in the system of unethical human experimentation that you haven't yet realized.
Truth is a prerequisite of our salvation; though, how could, one, possibly convey negative information to a human being which has suffered so much, as you did, without risking to, unintentionally, hurt her even more? How could, one, possibly not share, even negative, crucial information which may pave the way for old “wounds” to become healed?
Slowly, by following the pace of the Nature, I believe that, every “wound” shall become healed; every ignorance shall become revealed; every deprivation shall, at last, generously compensated.
At the 25' 50” of the first video (Azk IV - "Mind Control" - Dr Rauni Kilde) it is said that, "Astronauts and cosmonauts were always and are implanted with microchips so that all their body functions, feelings, dreams and subconscious can be seen on Earth". www.youtube.com/watch?v=Nvs5UixShgM
Ellen
Thanks for keeping me in your prayers.
Ellen Atkin
Sparkee
I just found you on YouTube. So glad I did. Been desperately trying to make sense in this. My mother was part of MkUltra too. Thankful I never SAW that (shock treatment) but overheard description of her telling my dad. She was among the last part in the 60's ("Officially").
I'm hard targeting and have isolated.
Hi Sparkee: Thanks. I am glad that I can help others thru this terrible thing. As tho it wasn't bad enuf that my whole family suffered under what we knew about. The blank spaces, the lost time and the unspeakable things they did to our minds, our bodies and our souls are the cause. It was them, not us. If people who went thru this only take away that one thing, it will be worth it. Sad part is, people don't know, even when all the signs are there.
You can bet you are hard targeted if any one of your family was known to be in the program. Then there are all the people who don't know they were in the program but have all the symptoms that are totally NOT recognized by established healers. Then you have the people who knew they were in the program but pretend they weren't. Targeting and being part of the experiments are different things. no question one who has been in the program under experimentation is targeted but most of these targets I hear from go thru a different thing. so much rabbit hole. thanks.
Anonymous
I found you! Thank you for all you do.
Anonymous
Thanks for your reply!
I have too many questions to ask. I've been writing down questions and deleting them. So, I'll just make it short. I've been looking up Vigilant Citizen's site, the post where he analyzes Stranger Things and how its about MK Ultra. And the Montauk Project got me interested. Since, I know you've watched Stranger Things as well (I think you mentioned it on one of your posts), I want to ask what you think of the Montauk Project. And Duncan Cameron?
And as for the 13 families, bloodlines. What are they trying to do? And what is the point of NWO? I know the general/basic info obviously. Totalitarian military controlled world. Everyone slaves etc. Thats why they create so many wars to make it look like there is conflict and the US goes and gets involved and buy their central bank and boom - closer to NWO. Yes, but I don't see the point of NWO. There has to be more explanation for its cause. Or maybe I just haven't read well enough. What are your thoughts?
As I said I have tons of questions, so my writing might be messed up.
Ellen Atkin
Thanks again for you comment. Hmmm. the other survivors, the stories, the cults, the fakes, Icke.
Personal testimony is good. In all its forms. Ultimately it is for personal healing, which is the most important thing really, soul reclaiming.
Is it true? It is all true, it is all lies. Every ones story is their story, their analysis, methods for finding healing are personal. IMO, they often make the mistake of believing that what worked for them will work for everyone. It is an honest mistake. But may find one decrying, Imposter! how can that be?
Most of the stories are metaphors. You have to find the truth in them. Plus different characters can make two exact same subjects sound totally opposite. You have to know what is true. The stories are helpful to heal, there is no point in attacking the story.
It took me 50 years to realize that one of my oldest friends had used my mother's story to create a victim parasite mentality that she tried to sell back to me my whole like as though I didn’t understand how it can afflict someone.
This is how insidious it is. Is it the programme or merely the matrix revealed? IMO, it is the matrix revealed that the programme tries its best to control by keeping us blindsided by lack of knowledge, manipulations, social engineering, ect..
We seek the answers which were always the answers, even before the programmers got to where they are now. You have to go back to creation to get the real scoop. otherwise you are being yanked. That is why the likes of Scott Mcquate and other insiders are the best analyzers. (I have since learned that the CIA deep state dark op MK Ultra people know ALL about the who what when and why of our existance, they just won’t let it be known)
Icke? I read his first book 20 yrs ago and never looked back into him. I find it hard to listen to him. It is all connected, the sinister is within. lots of the programme is trying to keep you from knowing that. then whipping up a whole bunch of bad feelings to feed the endless loop. I could go on forever.
Anonymous
Thank you for your reply! It’s really amazing to be in contact with someone who’s actually been involved in this. I'm sure you have read many of the other survivors' stories on the cults and programming. Are there any which give false information in your opinion, that you can maybe specify? Like maybe it wasn't written by real survivors and was untrue. And what are your thoughts on David Icke? - Thanks
Ellen Atkin
I should add, that my testimony, talking is what is saving me from soul annihilation. I turned off so much of this information for many reasons. But I had to turn it back on to recreate/ reclaim my essence. I was losing life force. So, I took up the mantle of my shamanistic self without fear of recrimination for my own well being. You have to fight for your truth. Because I am an artist/ salesperson, it doesn't really matter much to my clients that I am also mkultra girl as long as I maintain professionalism and deliver, which I do. Business is business. People understand it is only an aspect of self, not the totality. Spirituality, self expression and all its components is allowed in this life.
Ellen Atkin
I have in fact done work arounds- worked from the outside in, in order to create a life for myself. This is possible. I am proof. It is not a life for everyone. If I ever get the time and place to actually tell the crazy, unbelievable, often times harrowing adventures of my life, I might be able to impart my methods. But for now, I use my inner sense to try to impart the most relevant nuggets, but I don't think much of what I say is digestible.
I present evidence, clues, breadcrumbs publicly for the world to analyze and draw their own conclusions. I try to help because I have been thru the worst of it and still take it on all the time, but for me, it is normal. I grew up that way. I don't complain about it. I go at it. That is my purpose. My raison d etre.
As far as your perceptions and understanding of the programmers, deceivers, handlers, attackers, the truth is not what you have been led to believe. They need us. we are assets. We have the power. We need to know how to use it. I know a bit about that. hope that helps.
Anonymous
Hi. I just wanted to ask that since these experiments are still continuing, and these organizations run most governments of the world, how do you maintain your security? Do they not try to stop you from talking?
And of course spreading the proof and truth is the most effective way to inform people. But what would be the best way to actually try to stop them if they have all this power to even make Delta-Assassins? + I just really want to find out more so is there any extra information you could give about MK Ultra in general which you haven't gotten to expose yet?
I'm not really good at writing so I hope I haven't offended you in any way. Thank you.
Ellen Atkin
Thank you for your comment, Anon. Please feel free to PM me. there is a contact form on the left side bar, if you can see it, or just email me at ellenatkin@gmail.com
best
Anonymous
Interesting and I want to talk privately about my own memories.